Fear of- work, football, editing pictures, and Einstein....

Reality of Fear
You're not afraid of the dark-You're afraid of what's in it.
You're not afraid of heights- You're afraid of falling.
You're not afraid of people around you- You're afraid of rejection.
You're not afraid to love-You're afraid of not being loved back.
You're not afraid of to let go- You're afraid to accept the reality that they are really gone.
You're not afraid to try again- You're afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.


A friend of mine had this on her blog. I've never thought of fear this way before. It kind of surprises me how true it is too. 


I guess when it comes down to it, you just have to have faith that you can do hard things that you fear. 




This is the time in my blog where I take a few sentences paragraphs to complain for a bit. Because I'm certainly not perfect and am in a complaining mood. Okay, so it's not really that bad, just a little.


You guys, I'm kind of bored a lot these days. You see, I just got back from vacation where I just got to have fun all the time and didn't really worry about anything. And now, this is what my day consists of- wake up. put some make up on and do my hairs {which Is still fantastic to me that I can do this unlike on my trip!} then I probably edit a lot of pictures. {which in case any of you were wondering.... I finished editing a wedding I did! woohoo!} and then I probably do some dishes or help clean some part of the house. Then I beg ashleigh to let me go over to her house So I have something to do and also so I snuggle with my baby niece. Ashleigh's response to me always at her place, "you seriously need a boyfriend" Thanks Ash. And then I maybe go to work if I'm lucky enough to go to work that day to make some money. And then I may watch about Einstein on the history channel because I was that bored. Don't judge.
So, I need more friends here in Orem. All of mine are A-In logan, B- at their house for the summer, C- too busy working, or D- getting married/are married. So, if anyone else is in this same bored summer predicament, give me a call. I'd more than gladly do something with you. Even if we're not even that close of friends. Even if you're a stranger {as long as you're not a strange, stranger. :P}


I don't really like work these days. My first few days back were kind of rough.... 
not that it's hard work, or that I forgot how to do my job, or even that I forgot all the produce codes {because i remember produce codes like it's nobodies business!}. It's just every time I go to work, it reminds me why I'm going to college, So I don't have to do this job the rest of my life. Because it's not rewarding at all; it doesn't make me happy. Well, I'm rewarded with sore feet. It's just not my cup of tea can of Dr. Pepper, the grocery business that is. But I do love some of the people I work with. And some of the costumers are quite hilarious. And who wouldn't love wearing black shoes, black pants, black shirt, black apron, black everything? I mean, Gothic is the new "in", right now, right? ;)


I miss my logan friends. Living in an apartment complex with kids my age and activities always going on. I miss my school. Aggie athletic games. My student ward. etc.


This is all. I'm done now. And really am grateful to be at home where it's free rent and free food and that I get to see my cute little Gemma bear nearly every day. :D 


Also, can someone please explain to me why men play football?? My brother is the middle of "hell week" {I think... maybe that's next week?} Regardless, he has practices 2 times a day and without a doubt, he comes home with a new injury every time. He had a nail ripped off, bruised ribbs, ankle problems, something with his arms, and ice packs all over his body. And he says he's never been more sore in his life..... And yet, he goes back every day. twice a day. just to come home and get more ice and lay moaning and stinking up the house... I don't get it. It must be a guy thing. I just don't understand why people put themselves through something they know is going to cause them physical pain and injury... To each his own I guess.


Best news of my life time!!!!!!


I GET TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND IN ALL THE WORLD ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!! I haven't seen her in 2.5 months! A record since we've been best friends. And my lucky stars do I miss her soooooooo much! World, prepare yourselves, it's going to be epic. I can't even wait. 




I'm done for reals this time. 


xoXOxoXO
-Bri

OH. MY. STARS!

Do you have days where they're not really that great of days?
me too.
but do you ever have days where you're somehow really happy anyway?
me too.

little things that made my day today-

• a potential job opportunity
• talking to the girls in my major today. Really though. It was great! "give me his number, I'll ask him why!"  "once you go for an idaho man, you'll never go back." "I can set you up, they could be here in a day!" it was really a needed good conversation.
• one of my textbooks came!
• Allison made french fries
• looking at workbook.com photographers
• wearing comfy clothes
• Germany study abroad application in. BS'd the essay along with my friend, Beth, and joked about copying and pasting the same essay into both applications. haha
• sneezing a bajillion times. {okay, i don't really like sneezing. but i did sneeze a lot today because I am fairly certain i'm getting a cold. naturally.}
• Betsy proposing to me. again. 
• this quote from my grandma 

"FOR GAMES CAN’T BE WON UNLESS THEY ARE PLAYED,

AND PRAYERS CAN’T BE ANSWERED  UNLESS THEY ARE PRAYED….

SO WHATEVER IS WRONG WITH YOUR LIFE TODAY,

YOU’LL FIND A SOLUTION IF YOU KNEEL DOWN AND PRAY."

• etc

well... "I'm going to go..... shave" {name that movie}

-Bri

The good reasons why I haven't blogged in forever

So since the last time i blogged, lots has happened and gone on. :D

let me go get my journal so i can make a list of everything i've done....

• provo temple baptisms
• a wedding reception
• did 3 photo shoots
• edited lots of pictures
• bought an awesome dress from the 90's.
• and some striped pants that come up past my belly button. cause they're awesome!
• created a wedding registry at Target...... pretty sure this was one of the funnest things i've done this summer.
• ice cream at cold stone.
• having a jacket as a blind fold over my head being taken to a "secret" place that couldn't be found that night.
• but then the next day i was given a lavender scented, zebra print, sleep mask as a blind fold and was lead to
• discover park. and played hide and seek {i kinda rocked more at this than taylor did. :P}, tic tac toe, a really scary swing thing that was connected to another one that i think i almost died on.
• nielson's grove swinging. and we never really got to go on the circle ones.
• chasing ducks
• 20 questions
• had my first batch of Animal fries from In N Out.
• k mart fun.
• laughed really hard at the ball that was kicked across an aisle.
• sat in cute paris looking chairs
• had a fight with water aerobic weight things.
• went on an interesting blind date.
• was told i shouldn't go on the blind date. haha
• had a lot of phone conversations
• rock climbing.
• 

• did my laundry {just once in the past 2 weeks..... it's fine}
• had more animals fries
• and spilt my water. hahah
• and then taylor spilt my water too. hahahahahahaha
• FINALLY got to go inside my dream home {the somewhere inn time in Lindon} it kinda smelt weird. and the outside is a lot prettier.
• went to trafalga
• saw 4 4-D movies.
• played mini golf. Taylor beat me by ONE point. i think he cheated.... okay, so did i, but he probably cheated more. :P
• drove go carts. like real fast.
• had like 15 mcdonald's dollar dr peppers.
• updated our wedding registry. haha. and saw people i know while doing it. who probably now think i'm really engaged.
• soft serve ice cream at maceys
• broke the law..... {we j walked okay. give me a break! it's hard to walk to the cross walk}
• sent some funny texts. "did you just copy and paste my text?" "well you were the certain situation that sucked." i'll never ever forget these. :D
• bought Whisk, a new tank
• got whisk a girl friend. her name is Teaspoon. :D she's a babe. and whisk needs to start building a bubble nest so they can have baby beta's. {p.s. who wants a baby beta after they're born. cause apparently they have 100+ offspring...}
• learned about Beta reproduction. hahaha
• got more animal fries.
• played Uno for the first time in a long time
• awkward pictures
• talking till 3 am
• gas station run at 330 am.
• went to Logan and Brigham City
• decades dance
• 
• betsy ratted my hair.
• rocked at guitar in rock band... sorta....
• had the coolest experience in my life at a 4 way stop. seriously. i'm still trying to wrap my head around it.
• made blueberry pancakes.
• 
• cliff jumping
• swimming across the lake
• broke my cute flip flops. Now i only have cheap plastic ones left. good thing i have other sandals still.
• saw the largest spider i've ever seen.
• screamed till i was horse over this.
• tara killed it with MY shoe!
• sang a message instead of speaking
• was really happy about some information that i found out while i was in Logan. that made me re think some things. that i am still really happy about. like really. :D :)
• was sad because a certain person could NOT come to Logan.
• was sad because certain people DID come to logan.
• gave a tour of USU
• cleaned the sink
• 
• 4 men/{& women} on a couch.
• dryer riding.
• talking with my girl friends till way late
• a quote i really wish i could write on here. hahahahahaha oh lauren.
• the toilet incidents in P4. bahaha.
• had money stolen out of my wallet.
• said good bye to my niece, Caitlin. :'(

• more phone conversations.
• had some jerky things texted to me.
• saw someone get tackled for shop lifting. haha
• made choc chip zucchini bread.
• ice cream and swings at city center park.
• talking on my couch for hours.
• sold my first ebay item
• took a nap! so wonderful
• bought some jeans.
• first skinny jeans. still unsure of them
• school shopping
• roberts sale. bought supplies to make my journals for the year. :D
• Ikea.
• bought cute picture frames. {all under 4 bucks!}
• said "i like______" a lot in that store. Pretty sure i just like that whole store.
• Nearly ran into a car.
• drove around the draper temple
• "toured" a multi million dollar house with taylor while no one was home..... haha
• more animal fries.
• cute cupcakes from sweet tooth fairy. yum
• Didn't over analyze the only situation i should have.
• stressed over a conversation.
• felt really happy about a certain text.
• nielsen's grove again.
• DTR.... :D
• almost got hit while SOMEONE ;) tried to drive around the round about backwards. haha
• felt sad {when i've been feeling happy} about how little time till i go back to school :'(
• worked 5 shifts in 2 weeks at the outer darkness check stand at work.
• had an ice cream party with my family!!!!
• am super excited!!! :D seriously. my whole life. waiting. ah! happiness. joy. :D
• more exclamation marks sent to me in one text than ever before in my life. i think it was like 20 texts long of JUST exclamation marks. it made me smile and giggle. haha.

anyways, if this list isn't enough to make you tired, i have no idea what is.

i have had more fun the last 3 weeks or so than all the rest of the summer combined. And mainly because of a particularly awesome person.

it's kinda weird that i haven't taken more pictures of the things i've been doing lately. i honestly do not have any of most of these events. :'( i need to work on this i think. i mean, i KNOW!

10 days till moving to logan. :) :( it's fine. I'm just a jumble mess of things right now. Why, as a girl, do i have to have so many dang emotions running at the same time? i'd be perfectly content with a "nothing box" like boys get. jealous. what am i saying!? i don't want to be a boy! lol.

happy 12th of August. have a good weekend. i may not blog again till i move. we shall see.

xoxo.

work adventures, bug bites, raining mud, and a baby cradle??

with a title like that one i better get to work on making this a good post. it's my 181st post. big deal right?

okay so at work i was ridiculously bored cause i was put on "west express" aka- outer darkness. Which i hate. because it is so boring. so.... i decided to make myself un-bored.

so i created the longest paper clip chain i could. i used all of them in the black basket thing-a-ma-bob and then i took this here picture.

i'm pretty sure i was not supposed to do this. why? cause even i'll admit it is fetchin' annoying when you go to grab a paper clip and they are hooked to each other. yeah. well sorry, when i have nothing to do except twiddle my thumbs {which i'd already done so long that they were twiddled out} or "face" the pop cooler which i faithfully did every time someone touched one the only thing left to do is create a paper clip chain. AND....

decorate the pen..... Because there had been 3 pens stolen that day already and i didn't have a sticky pen holder thing to keep the pen from being hoisted again.

So i put these flashy little stickers on it that said, "paid in deli" on them so the pen was a- so hideous that no one would even want to steal it and b-would not look like any pen they'd ever had so they wouldn't think it was theirs. but mostly just "A".

anways, i got a new name tag at work. It say's "4th year of serving you." Which if you think about it, it's more of "4th year of working for you" because i'm not there for free. I get paid. So i don't really get it. But whatevs. plus, it says on the little paper to a "valued" associate. Who knew i was valued. they must really like me or something. i doubt everyone gets a music note paper....

P.S. did you guys see that randy is growing a beard????

{he's obviously on the left}

it makes him look like a mountain man/whole lot older/weird. Bob and Randy were in the store when i was making my paper clip chain and they both said hi to me. i said, "sup" okay i really just smiled and said hi back. But i nearly asked them why there was no apostrophe in the name "Harmons" it makes no sense. there last name is Harmon. and it's THEIR grocery store, so why is there no apostrophe to show possession? It really irritates me. I feel like i'm going against everything i was taught by my English teachers working for them. But hey, i get paid so this is why i don't say what's on my mind.

OH! and i think my boss got fired. But i'm still unsure of the story. I didn't really know her so i am not happy nor sad. But i think the general consensus on the "Front End" is joy.

i designed my new debit card. it's legit and going to look like this-

and don't write that number down cause it's a fake one. But don't trust me, you are more than welcome to test it out. :D

I have 3 Mosquito bites. they bite. hehe. i think i got 3 total all of last summer. Hopefully this means i am done now. There'd better not be mosquitos in heaven.

And it rained mud. And Calvin, my black car, Shows mud very well. He's talented like that.

and here are a few random pictures from my cell phone i took this summer-

look how dry we are!

look how wet they are! haha.
this sign says something to do with don't put your bums in the garden unless your a bumble bee. so they put their bums in the "garden" of rocks. :D
And there is now a cradle in my living room..... Ash and Nathan? Can we please talk? Or, mom? is there a surprise???
quinton fell asleep in more weird positions. this couch is only like 10 feet from his bedroom. why he doesn't go there?? i do not know.

grandma sent me a box of my grade school art work. i think this is constellations. i think i liked the letter "n" better than "b". it was done purposefully for a dramatic effect.

Caitlin and i take cool pictures. we're babes.

and then i went to N.Y.C. you didn't know NY had mountains like this did you??

psych! this was at the Lehi Trafalga. :D

p.s.s.s.s.s. etc. sorry for the side ways pictures. i was too lazy to switch them around because i have to go to bed to wake up at the bum crack of dawn to go watch the Hot air balloon lift off. Which is highly romantic {and also UPS men are too... romantic that is. and cowboys too.} in case you haven't read, "the time of aspen falls" if only i had a boyfriend to go with..... oh, wait.......

gotcha again! :P

i cannot wait for Lagoon on Tuesday.

nighty night.

do your self and your mothers a favor and don't end up at the hospital for burns from fireworks. Oh, and Pray for our heroic soldiers for the 4th of july especially. What studly stud muffins they are.

funny work stories, poems, καλός, & ikke bra.

in case you need a translator for the last couple words- καλός in greek means good. ikke bra Norwegian means not good. how fitting. ikke "icky" bra. haha. thank you google translate.

my favorite part of work today goes as follows {i was doing a ridiculous 30 minute survey about Floridian [the inhabitants of Florida, hellloooo....] politics} -

"hi, this is Brianna from opinioinology, a national research company. Is so-in-so-there?"-me.

"are you an under cover cop?!"-them.

"....no"-me.

"so-in-so has a warrant for her arrest. They're looking for her! I bet you're an under cover cop!"-them

"i'm just calling to do a political survey...."-me

"WELL SHE'S NOT HERE YOU COP!"

"khaveanicedaybyebye!" **puts on do not call list real fast**-me

seriously. it does not get better than this.

The first week i worked there, this is a conversation i had-

"using a scale from 1-10 where 1 is the crappiest and 10 is the most celestial, how would you rate your experience"-me {obviously it was worded slightly differently}

"-18"

"using a scale from 1-10 where 1 is the least likely and 10 is absolutely positively, how likely are you to recommend FedEx Office to a friend or colleague?" -me

"I'd recommend it to my ex-wife."

*tries not to laugh* "so what would that be on a scale?"

"well can you make my ex wife take the survey next?"

people are so wonderful. :D

if any of you want jobs at this wonderful place, everyone gets the job who applies. you should apply real soon. here is the link. Because this job is so wonderful that i'm putting my two weeks notice in relatively soon. :D I love it that much. here are the reasons why-

• i only can work nights. leaving me between Harmons and this place with zero nights a week of freedom and fun
• i hate making people do surveys
• i don't think half of the surveys i do are all that honest and are worded in ways to get the result that the people paying us to do them want to get.
• it's not worth minimum wage
• i'm getting more hours at the better of the two jobs i have
• they always want me to stay longer and pretty much say you have to "or else" which is kinda scary...
• they will cancel shifts and not tell you until you are already there. do they realize that gas is a ridiculous 3.50 a gallon???? No. Did i until i bought a car? No. but regardless.
• i think there is some serious reverse discrimination going on. not kidding either.

some one please ask to see my hand. i should not complain this much.

so i came home from the lonestar concert and have a back ache from Caitlin. She decided that i was her personal jungle gym. here's what we did-

• i taught her a couple briannaized country swing moves
• we swung around in circles like 16 bajillion times.
• i tried to teach her a line dance
• we raced {well... }
• we did air plane acrobatics.
• she jumped all over me
• attached herself to my foot and made me walk around
• played horse
• then wrestled
• and then Brianna was done in and Caitlin still had enough energy for 15 adults to last a whole week. So then Ash and i made her run back and forth across the field 3 times for 5 M&M's.
• which gave her more energy to start this whole list over again.

to self: Candy is NOT for already active 8 year olds.

and now i'm going to write you my favorite poem-

there once was a boy named mutt

who sat on a railroad rutt

a big wooden splinter

did break off and enter

his soft little baby smooth butt

that was the pattern of aabba. fyi

and here is a free verse that papa anne {aka sara} wrote me-

The sun shines dappled light through

Crayons paint the colors of my sad, sad eggbeater

The trees

Good lighting, this makes

Goo-oo-oo-d lighting.

Brianna has.

A camera and she

Summer rain falls on the unhappy

Clown-fairy

Wants to take a

Picture of the lighting

And the tree.

isn't she the most talented girl ever??

anyways, i have some excellent news-

• school starts in less than 2 months. i'm going to get a little countdown thingamajig to put on the side next to my counter thing.
• i finished another book. it was called "a modest proposal" better than the other one i read, but not nearly as funny. i
• i am going to lagoon in one week. {ashleigh, email me the plan!!!} :D
• i got a calling at church. i'm the woman FHE group leader. not the mom. cause we're "not a real family."....
• my beta fish is still alive after more than a month!! his name is whisk. the next one i get will be named, "spaghetti getter"
• i asked my brother in law a really random question that resulted in a slightly awkward yet still very interesting conversation that Ashleigh though was hilarious.
• there is a baby cradle in my living room....... and a baby bath tub thing too. mom, do you need to tell me something?? :P
• i finally remembered to pay my tithing! That money has been sitting in my wallet for like 2 months getting larger.
• Betsy's mom still loves me. :D :D :D :D
• Quinton made the all star baseball team! :D
• i shot another wedding on saturday! you can see some pictures on my photo blog.

and here is the bad news-

• that book i read, yeah, t's a dumb trilogy. which means i have to read the next to or else i won't know what to do with myself.
• my nail polish is all chipped again.
• i have apx. 1500 RAW pictures to sort through and edit
• my bank account is at an all time low since i was probably a sophomore in high school.
• i'm nearly out of eye liner.
• no one recorded the bachelorette for me tonight so i have to watch it tomorrow on Hulu instead of tonight which is why i'm writing this here blog.
• i miss the dark room and smelling like rotten eggs and having dry crackling alligator looking hand skin.
• Quinton's friend Brigham enjoys spitting spit wads at me when i take him to Trafalga. Oy vey.
• quinton wants to grow a mullet. ew

okay, i'm going to hit the hay to get some beauty sleep.... as Grandpa Cobb would say.

loves and snuggles,