Fear of- work, football, editing pictures, and Einstein....

Reality of Fear
You're not afraid of the dark-You're afraid of what's in it.
You're not afraid of heights- You're afraid of falling.
You're not afraid of people around you- You're afraid of rejection.
You're not afraid to love-You're afraid of not being loved back.
You're not afraid of to let go- You're afraid to accept the reality that they are really gone.
You're not afraid to try again- You're afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.


A friend of mine had this on her blog. I've never thought of fear this way before. It kind of surprises me how true it is too. 


I guess when it comes down to it, you just have to have faith that you can do hard things that you fear. 




This is the time in my blog where I take a few sentences paragraphs to complain for a bit. Because I'm certainly not perfect and am in a complaining mood. Okay, so it's not really that bad, just a little.


You guys, I'm kind of bored a lot these days. You see, I just got back from vacation where I just got to have fun all the time and didn't really worry about anything. And now, this is what my day consists of- wake up. put some make up on and do my hairs {which Is still fantastic to me that I can do this unlike on my trip!} then I probably edit a lot of pictures. {which in case any of you were wondering.... I finished editing a wedding I did! woohoo!} and then I probably do some dishes or help clean some part of the house. Then I beg ashleigh to let me go over to her house So I have something to do and also so I snuggle with my baby niece. Ashleigh's response to me always at her place, "you seriously need a boyfriend" Thanks Ash. And then I maybe go to work if I'm lucky enough to go to work that day to make some money. And then I may watch about Einstein on the history channel because I was that bored. Don't judge.
So, I need more friends here in Orem. All of mine are A-In logan, B- at their house for the summer, C- too busy working, or D- getting married/are married. So, if anyone else is in this same bored summer predicament, give me a call. I'd more than gladly do something with you. Even if we're not even that close of friends. Even if you're a stranger {as long as you're not a strange, stranger. :P}


I don't really like work these days. My first few days back were kind of rough.... 
not that it's hard work, or that I forgot how to do my job, or even that I forgot all the produce codes {because i remember produce codes like it's nobodies business!}. It's just every time I go to work, it reminds me why I'm going to college, So I don't have to do this job the rest of my life. Because it's not rewarding at all; it doesn't make me happy. Well, I'm rewarded with sore feet. It's just not my cup of tea can of Dr. Pepper, the grocery business that is. But I do love some of the people I work with. And some of the costumers are quite hilarious. And who wouldn't love wearing black shoes, black pants, black shirt, black apron, black everything? I mean, Gothic is the new "in", right now, right? ;)


I miss my logan friends. Living in an apartment complex with kids my age and activities always going on. I miss my school. Aggie athletic games. My student ward. etc.


This is all. I'm done now. And really am grateful to be at home where it's free rent and free food and that I get to see my cute little Gemma bear nearly every day. :D 


Also, can someone please explain to me why men play football?? My brother is the middle of "hell week" {I think... maybe that's next week?} Regardless, he has practices 2 times a day and without a doubt, he comes home with a new injury every time. He had a nail ripped off, bruised ribbs, ankle problems, something with his arms, and ice packs all over his body. And he says he's never been more sore in his life..... And yet, he goes back every day. twice a day. just to come home and get more ice and lay moaning and stinking up the house... I don't get it. It must be a guy thing. I just don't understand why people put themselves through something they know is going to cause them physical pain and injury... To each his own I guess.


Best news of my life time!!!!!!


I GET TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND IN ALL THE WORLD ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!! I haven't seen her in 2.5 months! A record since we've been best friends. And my lucky stars do I miss her soooooooo much! World, prepare yourselves, it's going to be epic. I can't even wait. 




I'm done for reals this time. 


xoXOxoXO
-Bri

Dark Date= best idea ever!

Have you seen "When in Rome"?
Well, in the movie, there is a part where they are at a restaurant and it's completely black. No light at all. Well, Betsy had this great idea to re create this in our apartment.
I thought it sounded fun, but didn't know if it would work.
So, we taped black garbage bags over our windows and waited till it got dark, made dinner, and planned a way fun after dinner activity. Oh, and asked guys on dates.

Well, while I was walking literally 10 feet to pick my date up, I closed the door and Betsy was off getting jake and none of my other roommates were here and the door was locked!! so, all of our windows are taped over and our door is new so we couldn't even card in. sigh. We ended up having to just climb through a window and re tape it. good thing Glen has mad getting windows open skills.... which kind of freaks me out cause he lives 10 feet from me.

We show the guys the little part from the movie {cause we wouldn't tell them what we were doing} and then turn all the lights off and move to the kitchen. And good news! You could not see a thing! nothing. It was like the same darkness level as the film developing rooms on campus. {which made me so happy for some reason to know that I could turn my house into a giant darkroom if I wanted to!}
It was so so funny. I'm not so sure about What Betsy and Jake were doing, but I think they might have had a mini food fight cause there was a lot of screaming. haha. It was so hard to eat in complete darkness! How do blind people do this?

So after we get done eating, we break out the funnest part-finger painting!! in the dark!

Best idea ever!! {my input to this date} We had like 24 mini paint container things and paper and just drew all over the paper and the bags covering the table and each other. And it was a blast. I poked Glen's eye at some point which I felt bad for, but, we looked so fantastic! I painted his nails, he gave me lipstick, and make up.
Anyways, If any of you want a cheap, way fun date idea, you can use this, you won't regret it.

We went up to the quad after cleaning up a bit and it was lame, but i'd never been there for a true Aggie night so we stayed a bit and watched and got free chap-stick! :D

Then we went to his apartment and ate ice cream and watched a movie and talked and I totally fell asleep. And stayed out as late as our "average" haha. {did I tell you how he taught me how to swing a golf club at 2:30am a couple nights ago? Randomest thing award of the week}

Anyways, This dark date will go down in the history of my top funnest date ideas i've ever done/been on.  

blacked out windows

dished up food before the guys came over

here's everyone. Look at our wonderful masterpieces!

we did really good. :D

can you tell that jake painted betsy? 

Betsy and Jake had tons of fun too

attractive people. 

Glen cleaning up.

You must let me know if any of you do this, k?

Differences between right and wrong.

So, I'm 20 and have now had 20 years of agency. As I've gotten older I've had more of it. Moving out and going to college has given me pretty free range in whatever I want to do.
I used to think I'd love making all my own decisions. Not so anymore. I wish people would tell me what to do when it comes to the really hard things. Because if i've learned anything it's that-

Doing the right thing and doing the wrong thing are very different. The wrong thing is easier. It's always easier to give in. The right thing is so hard.

the other thing i've learned about right and wrong-

The wrong thing will not hurt you at the moment. It'll most likely make you feel good and relieved. It's what the bad side of you wants because no one likes to be hurt. The right thing though, will hurt at the moment sometimes. And sometimes it'll make you feel like you could never feel worse.

But, the most important thing I've learned-

The wrong thing's "feel good" stage will leave. And in replace, you'll feel worse than you would have if you made the right choice in the beginning. Making the right decision may nearly kill you, tear you're heart to pieces, and then feel like they're stomped on, but in the long run, things will be better. You'll know you made the right decision and no matter how hard it is in the beginning, there's a {very} faint light at the end of the tunnel calling your name.

After making the right decision, you'll most likely at some point want to give up. You'll probably think at some point while you're feeling awful, you want to rewind and have a re do because human nature is not to want to feel bad. And the whole time while making the right decision, there will be both people rooting for you, and there will be people booing you while trying to make you feel worse.

More things I've learned-

Associate yourself with people who make it easier to do the right thing. People that are pretty darn good shoulders to cry on, because I promise, you'll need it at some point. people that cheer you on in the good things, not the bad. It makes life easier ten fold.

“It takes less time to do things right than to explain why you did it wrong.” -Henry Longfellow

“In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing. The worst thing you can do is nothing.” -Theodore Roosevelt. 

“The truth of the matter is that you always know the right thing to do. The hard part is doing it.” -H. Norman Swarzkopf 

And to end on a happier note, Betsy and I went to the temple yesterday. :D And also to the mall yesterday. We'd never been to the cache valley mall. {okay, I went to bath and body in it once but no other stores} and it is by far the smallest mall I've ever been to. Maybe has 25-30 stores. The best store in that mall though, was the video store. It was so awesome!! There were stacks and stacks just laying around. Stacked as high as the ceiling. VHS, DVDs, Records, Cassettes, CDs, games, everything. We found some gems in there. I asked the worker guy if I could do a photo shoot in there some time and he said yes! So, i'm excited about this. :D Here's a picture I took of Betsy while there.

Thankful Post

i'm thankful for-

My family-

Mom

Dad

Ash {and nathan AND baby girl}

Q

Ems

my puppy, Kandi

G&G Cobb and Dickerson

Aunts and Uncles 

Cousins

My really close friends. Especially

Betsy & Lauren. 

Taylor 

and my roommates from this year and last year-

Allison, Anna, Melissa, Tara, Ashley, Natalie, Michelle, Shanna

The people in my major. They keep things interesting.

USU. Aggies. Best school EVER!

electric blankets

Christmas time

church music and playing the piano

photography

my beliefs and the church

laughing

my cameras

my freedoms

etc

happy Thanksgiving!

Recipe Wednesday turned Thought Thursday + pictures

My grandma sent this to me. I liked it.

Take time to think-it is the source of power.

take time to read-it is the foundation of wisdom

take time to play-it is the secret of staying young. 

take time to be quiet-it is the moment to seek God.

take time to be aware-it is the opportunity to help others.

take time to love and be loved-it is God's greatest gift.

take time to laugh-it is the music of the soul.

take time to be friendly-it is the road to happiness.

take time to dream-it is what the future is made of.

take time to pray-it is the greatest power on earth. 

our quote wall is growing 

i want to do this with the license plate!

i made guacamole. well, technically i guess Glen made {smooshed} it.

the start of my light for 3D design

bread bowl and soup at ward Halloween party

picture i printed today in darkroom.

another one

someone i know got this announcement in he mail, and i
 love the time of the reception! 6:05-8:20?? random!

cowboy corner in my room is growing. :D

ignore the stuff on her arm. it was wet and made a weird design.

another one. i really liked them all.

a new sign in the photo room. gotta love it!

have a most excellent night!

xoxo

-Bri