Cool Pants, Pearls, Ashleigh's baby, and excited for Friday.

So today i went to my friend's sister's roommates's work party. {Not kidding} and there was the most adorable baby girl there. {like newborn} and i just wanted to hold her the entire time. It made me even more excited for my sister to have her baby! i just really want a little girl. If {on friday!} she finds out it's a girl, i'm going to learn how to make really cute baby headbands with big bows and flowers.

Every time i go to a store i want to look at all the cute baby clothes. This isn't even MY child and i'm kind of in love with it a lot! I love that little baby sooo much already and i don't know it's gender. I think about it all the time, and their not even close to being done baking in the oven. *sighs* I can't wait to be an aunt to this {no doubt} darling baby. I hope it has red hair. I honestly don't think i've ever in all my life been more excited about anything than i am about meeting this little one. :D

Dear end of March-
please get her UBER fast!
love,
      an excited {and the favorite} aunt .


in a different note:

Dear Friday-
please get here super fast too. I can't wait for the institute dance amongst other reasons. If you take forever, i will not be a thrilled personage.
love,
       Bri


So today is Halloween. I dressed up. and walked around campus in my costume. ALL DAY. and guess what? no one dresses up. but i did. why? because i got a lot of extra credit in my 3D design class. so it was worth it.

I love these girls lots and lots and lots. 

i didn't wear this outfit today, this is what i wore on saturday for the halloween party i went to. i'm a fan of my pants. I wore an awesome dress today! everyone is really jealous of it.

Tonight i went to my ward's halloween party. and it was wonderful! super super fun. My friend {and roommate from last year} Anna, had this on her facebook page- ‎"I miss the days when Halloween was about showing off your costume rather than your cleavage" so true. Amen. Agreed. Etc.

This weekend was really good. It was stake conference. I almost didn't go to the evening session saturday night, and i am SO glad that i did. Ya know those talks that seem to have been written for you? Well every one of them were written for me. and sunday's session too! It was like the happiest thing ever. I literally had a few tears fall because of it. I love church. :D I love the overwhelming feeling i get sometime that i know i can handle everything i'm thrown. It was comforting. :D

also, it was my 3/4 birthday last week. so if someone wants to buy me some real pearl earrings i'd be fine with that. I'm a big fan of pearls. And i'd be an even bigger fan of you if you bought me some real pearls

Betsy is struggling through her math homework and i just keep having to help her ;) so i finally told her "Betsy, you're going to have to figure this one out on your own, you'll learn more if i don't help you with this one." and she busted her gut. It was pretty funny {for those of you who don't know, betsy is a math major, and i don't know math at all.}

I love you all. Why? i have no idea. JOKE! because you read my blog! But here's the thing, everyone tells me that they read it, but no one follows it. So your challenge of the day is to go push follow. Cause it'd be nice to know who reads it.

alas i am done writing.
xoxo

-Bri

Recipe Wednesday turned Thought Thursday

So yesterday was too busy to make anything. so i made mac & cheese. for those of you who don't know this, this is my favorite breakfast food. yes, breakfast. I love soups and leftovers and anything non-breakfast for breakfast. If i'm going to have breakfast food, it'll most likely be for dinner. I know, i'm weird. no need to tell me this.

So i made jambalaya- for 2 reasons. 1-because i needed me some spicy southern food. and 2-because i told my friend, Garin, that i would make him something sometime. only all of the food i cook would kill him. Cause he's deathly allergic to milk. So. this proposed some serious problems. did you know that margarine even has butter in it?? i did not. anyways, the other day i was thinking about making jambalaya and a light bulb went off in my head. jambalaya has zero milk. :D i had a polska cheese sausage that i usually use and had to go buy one that didn't have the cheese, but other than that this was a little easier to do than i thought it would. Don't get me wrong, i was still highly paranoid and kinda freaked out because i didn't want to kill the kid on accident. I'm pretty sure if i had to cook for him full time i'd get stomach ulcers from the stress. geez. haha. Although he assures me that it won't be scary after the first few times. i think he just wants me to keep making him food.... :P

anyways. jambalaya is not too hard to make. mainly you just need the right spices and you'll be fine.

here's the simplest way-

use a package of zatarans jambalaya seasoning and add rice. {the smaller amount you use, the spicier it is. and then dress it up with more peppers and some chili powder and Polska sausage and chicken and tony sacher's creole seasoning, or shrimp, or if you are lucky and can find them, CRAWFISH! mmmm. Love that water creature. One day, i'm going to go crawfish hunting again and then have a huge crawfish boil and eat those things till my lips burn so bad from all the spicy spices! The worst part is your fingers have the spices in them for days and every time you wipe your eyes they feel like they're on fire. anyways... i need to stop talking about crawfish because i want to cry that you can't get them here.

I should have taken a picture before we ate and cleared
off the table. but alas, i am not doing so hot at taking as
many snap shot pictures of my life this year. :'(

i made cornbread too. which Garin couldn't eat because the mix said "may contain milk"....

Jambalaya. it's one of my favorite things. I want to make a king cake again. because those are my favorite things in all the world. but, they kind of take a good 6-8 hours of work. so, next time i make them, instead of making 2, i'm making at least 4. at least.

So there is southern food Recipe Wednesday on a Thursday.

Photo Midterm Pictures.

Here are a few of the pictures I printed for my photo midterm. :D

gotta go finish my image journal. :D

my favorite

Midterm

I just got out of a demo for location lighting and have a half hour till my next class. to start anything in the darkroom i would need no less than 1.25 hours {yes, for reals. i've calculated it} so therefore instead of working on my mid term i will be blogging. :D

here is the list of things that i have to have in my midterm {in fancy words, my words and an easiness level from 1-10 [hard] }-

Part A {controling subject contrast/tonality}-
1- photograph one white and one gray card with the proper subject contrast/tonality {meaning-make the gray and white cards look gray and white. easiness level-5}
2-photograph one white and one gray card so that they both appear the same GRAY subject contrast/tonality. {make the white card look gray using the frennel lights.  easiness level-9 {not kidding! i have probably worked harder on this number than on any other one on this list} }
3-photograph one white and one gray card so that they both appear the same WHITE subject contrast/tonality. {now make the gray card look white using the frennel lights. easiness level-2 {but this is only a 2 because as soon as you get number 2 all you have to do is change your exposure 3 F-stops. but if you were doing this without number 2, it'd be a 9 as well.} }

Part B {light fall-off test/inverse square law}- {if you don't know what the inverse square law is and you think you're a photographer, you would be incorrect. it's kind of a BIG deal}

1- photograph the bumbers 2 and 6 cards at their respective distances {2= 2 feet from the light and 6=6 feet from the light easiness level-6. it's doable. it's easy to get it to do what it's supposed to, the hard part is making the light even on both the cards with only one light}
2-photograph the bumbers 10 and 11 cards at their respective distances {10=10 feet from the light and 11=11 feet from the ligh.t easiness level-6.}

{we had a different one here instead to begin with and then as soon as i shot it and printed it, he changed it to this one... naturally that'd happen to me. So i'm going to write this one out too because i did it already- we had to shoot a mirror on a white surface and couldn't get any reflection of anything in the room in the mirror we shot. -
1-make the mirror light gray and keep the background white {easy}
2-make mirror white on light gray surface {keep in mind that the mirror has to stay on the original white surface the entire time. easiness level-6}
3- make mirror white and change background to look black {insanity! easiness level-not recordable. i'd say like a 15!}
4- there were a few others i don't remember exactly what they were

Part C {illustrating shape and dimension}-

take a simple light toned object {a white sphere is what i used} and photograph it on a white background. Use the following lighting combinations.

1- Side light {hard and soft} with the light source close.  {shoot the object with it being lit from the side with a reflector and a soft box. easiness level-4}
2 Side light {hard and soft} with the light source far. {shoot the object with it being lit from the side with a reflector and a soft box. easiness level-4}
3-Front light hard and soft with the light source far. {have the light be behind your camera when you shoot. Which he told us would NOT create a shadow. Which it did. which made me have to do the picture over again. which is not easy because it's film. Which added about 6 hours more of work. i'm not upset about this though. {easiness level-6.5}
4- Top light hard and soft with the light source far. {get a "BOOM" set it up, tie weights to it, drop weights on toe, cry a little {okay so i didn't do this, but someone in my class did}, act like a strong man and hoist the light up 30 feet into the air. climb on ladder, adjust light, nearly fall to your death, have boom fall over, nearly smashing your sphere, but luckily caught by girl you're working with, snap picture, say a prayer of gratitude for not dying. easiness level-8}
5-Back light hard and soft with the light source far {self explanatory, easiness level-7 because we had to not get lens flare from the light going directly into the camera and therefore had to use a "hood" }

the hardest part of Part C is not shooting, it's printing. This so far is the hardest one i've had to print.

Part D- photographing transparent objects {like glass}

1- Bright field lighting {white background but the edges are supposed to be black}
          a-backlighting with softbox {the soft box is the background easiness level-6}
          b-front lighting with a hard light and gobo {cool word, no? easiness scale-9! ridiculous. do you know how hard it is to get zero reflections in a glass and no flare, and nothing but pretty "sexy" glass as my professor calls it?? HARD!}

2-Dark field lighting {background is black but the edges are white}
     a- backlighting with a softbox {easiness level- 7. i don't think i did this one right.....
     b-front lighting with a hard light and gobo {9. I hate front lighting pretty much. this picture we had to take a picture of a glass and it was in like a tent. Everyone had to duck and the entire studio had to be void of anything at all reflecting. Including cell phone lights. insane}

3- lighting for refraction through a liquid. {i like this one. it looks cool. easiness level-7.5}

4- side lighting with fill card and transparent object "prepared" on a gradient background. (prepared object =object that the back is sprayed to make it not totally transparent. this one looks super cool too! after you have the light set up for number 3, it's not hard. it's the same lighting, you just have to do something different to the object}

5- photograph 2 different creative applications using the techniques applied in the above section. the final images must be generated with a 4x5 camera and printed as wet lab enlargements. be certain to use the full extent of the large format camera movements. {i hate large format. it's the bane of photography. it's beautiful, it really is. It's just a pain. And REALLY expensive. it's about 4 dollars for every picture you take {just in the film.} and uses a lot more chemicals to develop too. easiness level- 7 in taking the picture, in developing the film-9}

Part E- photographing Chrom
first attempt-was our first assignment. we did it digitally. mine kind of rocked. you can take a looksie at them here.
second attempt. i took pictures of more silverware in the studio. kinda pretty.

Part F- photographing a replication.
I chose Immogen cunningham's picture of fennel.
my first attempt i shot cabbage.
second attempt i shot the actual thing. and it took 6 hours to figure out how to get it even close to what it looked like. This one is my favorite that i've done. it's SOOOO pretty. :D

I'll put pictures up of all my stuff probably by thursday. but if not, don't shoot me. there's a lot to get done.

well, night people. :D xoxoxox
-Bri

oh, and betsy wanted me to tell you that i love her. which is true.

Best night in a month

So once there was this boy named Taylor. He was my boss at work. We became friends and last March we started hangin' out a bunch. Then this summer happened and we did something nearly every day. {this is not a joke} This guy became one of my best friends and we were super close. I said goodbye to him and moved back up to Logan. It was hard going from seeing him nearly everyday to never ever seeing him. I didn't really know what to do with myself sometimes. We talked on the phone a lot and he's send me funny inside joke texts like "did you just copy and paste my text" and "well you were the certain situation that sucked" and i would laugh every time. Anyways, there's some background on this kid.
I was out with my mom yesterday and Taylor called me and asked me to go to dinner with him. I thought he told me he had to work tonight. But surprise!  He didn't. I didn't have anything else planned {luckily ;) when he picked me up i told him this and he said "Whatever Brianna, i know you would've canceled your other plans to do something with me." I told him "I don't know, i might not have" even though i knew he was mostly right... haha}

And here is what we did {it's a very long list}

we left my house and my mom asked what time he'd have me home. he responded "oh ya know, 4 or 5" mom- "that wouldn't surprise me, you've kept her out that late before...." haha

We went and visited his mom at work. she works at Dressed In White. She had me try on these cute new temple shoes so she could enter her name into a drawing for a prize. His mom is really nice. Also, i got to talk to my friend, Chelsey, who i've known since before i was born, who also works there. small world.

we went to dinner and I told him about my life and caught up with each other even more. Really fun, good pie, funny manager.

After this we went to the mall. I looked at some Tom's with googley {how do you spell that?} eyes and then i bought something i'd been looking for like a year for-a white eyelet  skirt. Taylor made me model it. He was going to exchange this pair of pants for a different size, but they didn't have them.

We then went to FYE and looked at cheap movies, he tried to find disney music CD's but it was mostly a fail. I was looking at their long row of posters and he came up behind me with a cardboard cut out of the girl from the big bang theory and said something in a high voice. i turned around and this lady was like 2inches away from my face. kinda scared me.

well it was my choice next and i chose barnes and noble {which i lost a bet on because i thought this store was on the opposite side of the strip mall than he did and he turned out to be right.....naturally.... which means i owed him a Dr Pepper. this is important for later on in the story} We reminisced  in the kiddo books and then i sat cross legged while he attempted to read "little red riding hood" to me like a first grade teacher would. But it was kind of a fail because we were laughing to hard. With our backs pressed up against a bookshelf, we did mad libs on a separate piece of paper and debated whether to actually buy a book and do them all night {cause apparently he wasn't kidding when he told my mom 4 or 5} on our way out, we attempted to figure out how to work a nook and failed epically.

Then we went to Harmons, where we both used to work and visited with a few people for a while.

Then we went to Sunflower market and bought 9 avocados, guacamole mix, Cheetos, and looked at their produce. haha.

Taylor isn't good at focusing. 

Then he reminded me i lost a bet and needed to pay up because i was going "all the way back to dumb Logan". So we went to McDonalds and got Dr. Peppers. He said "go find a seat, i'll get them" When he returned with the drinks, i tasted mine, it was not Dr. Pepper. He asked "how does yours taste?" i said "not like Dr. Pepper." isn't he funny? so then he went and refilled it and guess what he did this time? he tied a knot in my straw! But, he brought an extra and i blew the wrapper at him because he deserved it. It was pretty grand.

the angel he drew

He told me a few crazy mission stories and other stories too. We played the game where you draw a line, then he draws a line, and you make a picture together. Then he told me the story of how his parents met and it's a pretty great one. He asked me what he should draw on a napkin next. i told him to draw me. he said "i can't draw an angel!" what a charmer he is. But then he really did draw an angel. i gave him drawing advice and he didn't really follow it.

After winning the exploding volcano thing. :D

After they kicked us out of McDonalds we went to Walmart. here's what we did- honked bike horns, he threw a dog frisbee, sprayed glitter on me, i wiped it on his face, a worker thought he was beating me up, sat on bean bag chairs, looked at 5 dollar movies, looked at fish, said i should buy another one, played the game with the hook hand thing and you try to win a prize. Guess what? Taylor won. First try. I almost won too! it picked the thing up, and then it dropped. Then we left the store and drove past my dad's billboard.

At this point it was 1:20 ish and i was starting to wonder if we'd make it much later. We drove the long way back to my house and i asked if he was coming in or was just going home. He said "i'll just grab those treats" So i went to grab the plate and he sat down on the couch. so then i put the plate down and sat next to him. He wanted to see some pictures i had taken lately so i showed him and he was asking me all these questions of how i edited them and such so i got out a picture we had taken together and i showed him random things on editing. I had to use the little girls room and while i was gone he updated my facebook status and thought he was sooo clever. here's the picture. Don't judge my editing skills off of this picture, because it was a fast edit and not very precise or correct. haha.


Then i got several hugs and said bye. Only, the best part about going on dates with Taylor is this- it's never over when he leaves because he always calls me like 2 minutes after he leaves and talks to me on his drive home to Springville. haha.

Also, i'm a big fan of his hair cut right now. It looks way good one him. And he best not be changing it in 2 weeks like he seems to always do. hint hint taylor.

It was weird that the second i got in his car, it felt like the last 2 months of being in Logan and not seeing him hadn't happened. It seemed like just the day before i was doing the exact same thing like we did every day during the summer. i loved that!

It was probably the best night i've had in at least a month.
And now i'm headed to church and then home to Logan.

And this is why

And this is why i love coming home-


I'm sorry i didn't rotate the pictures to the correct orientation. this is still something i haven't figured out how to do in blogger and was too lazy to do it before i uploaded them. {and then you wonder why i like cooking, i get it from my mom. and then you wonder why i'm not tooth pick skinny}
one day, i'm going to be like my mom. Im going to have warm cookies waiting for my kids when they come home from school, and teach them how to make delicious treats that can heal any situation. Even if you're emotionally exhausted and have had a poopy week. There is nothing quite like coming home. I miss my family. And i've missed orem too.

Cute sugar cookies

and more cute cookies!

even our piano has decoration on it.

seriously, every spot in the house has decorations for fall and halloween. I love it!

my daddy has a billboard on state street here in orem!  

and on that note... i also filled out my absentee ballot form tonight. of course, i only voted for my dad. :D

And this is a rosa sauce with chicken and sausage and fresh parmesan. 

and this is what i made :D

the table. does this not look absolutely amazing??

My posts lately have been very picture-less. I have been too lazy to put  them up. so, here they are. 

did you know this?

a sign hanging on our wall of our apartment. allison made it, i drew the border.

Annie and I play tic tac toe together during class.
{We also watch Hitch}
the reason why the B is so big, because i won and didn't know it. so i
got really excited because i had no idea i had won!

this is a chemical in the photo lab. If i die, it might be because i was poisoned. 

my temple picture is framed and on my wall of religiousness. :D

the mustache party. maybe i'll try to grow a big mustache, i think i could pull it off. especially with my bangs looking like they do in this picture.... 

this is my 3 d design sculpture. and guess what? it made it in the display case!!
which kind of is a big deal! Go look in the FAV and you shall see it! 

this is billy. my pumpkin.

here's my shoe for 3d. and the shoe i modeled it off of is in the
middle so you can see how big the shoe actually is. those durn rhinestones took
FOREVER and a day to hot glue on. 

finished! I added the bow. 

my first worm at wendy's! with Lauren. I love that girl SO much. She is such a wonderful friend. :D i wish she was one of my roommates.

I just wanted to give a little shout out to my friend, Taylor. Last night I was having a girls night with Betsy, Anna {and her husband Brian....haha}, Tara, Annie, and Melissa, and Ashley. I walked into my house and there they all were. I was not in a particular happy or excited mood, but i was happy to see them there. Because i hadn't seen most of them in ages! Most of the time, girls night and ice cream does the trick. Not last night. Melissa was telling us all about her engagement story, and everyone had all these cool things to talk about and then everyone was youtubing these cute love songs that normally i would be "aww!" ing over but i just was not feeling it. I was leaning my head on betsy's shoulder and she was playing with me hair. She knew what was wrong and i was thinking to myself, "I can't do this anymore. I am going to go to bed." when i get a call. From Taylor. There is absolutely nothing in the entire world that could have made me feel more better than what he said right after i gave a week greeting of "hey". He said, "Brianna!! Did you know that you are a wonderful and beautiful daughter of God and that he loves you?" It was a good thing that before i answered i had begun to walk up the stairs because i lost it. There was absolutely no stopping the waterworks this time and i really didn't feel like explaining to all the girls downstairs what the problem was when they were all having fun telling their cute stories. He let me cry for a minute and then he said "for some reason i've been worried about you all day! what's wrong?" I told him i just needed to laugh and he promptly told me a pretty funny thing that happened to him the day before. And then we sang the mickey mouse club house song together like old times and he gave me some good advice. So, thanks Taylor. You're one pretty great friend! I hope i get to see him this weekend. 

p.s. i feel as if i should mention that i usually don't cry this much in one week. I don't know what is wrong with me.... okay so i do. But still, i'm not usually this emotional. and next week- i PROMISE i'll be back to my normal happy blogging self. :D

Here is we from the summer. the ONE picture i finally convinced him to let me take.

Thought Thursday +fun too

I'm in the photo lab at this moment. My film is taking a bath for 20 minutes longer and I don't have enough time to start anything new before i have to head to my class.
so that leaves me to blog. And after all, it is Thought Thursday.

 In general conference there was a talk titled "Love her Mother" by Sister Dalton

she said, “The most important thing a father can do for his daughter is to love her mother.”


"Within a few weeks our three sons will have given their baby daughters a name and a blessing. I hope this will be the first of many priesthood blessings they receive from their fathers, because in the world in which they will grow up, they will need those blessings. Your daughter will cherish the priesthood and determine in her heart that this is what she wants in her future home and family."


I think this quote is so true. You can read her whole talk here.

In institute yesterday the lesson was all about Christ and women. I've never had a lesson like it before. There are some pretty cool stories that I had heard before, but never have thought about in the same way.

My institute teacher said a few things to the girls in the class that really stood out to me.

The first one was something like- Girls, you base too much of what you think your personal worth is based on what the gentlemen think of you. you have an instinct inside of you that needs a guys attention and love. While the world tells you, you don't need them, you do. Guys-because you know this, make sure you help them feel like the daughters of God that they are. And you guys need the girls just as much as they need you.

self-do i do this? ummm... i think i do? {the whole self worth based on dumb boys}. Not nearly as much as some girls, but this is kind of a natural thing. I feel like I'm confident and I always say "who even needs guys anyway?". Maybe i should not say that anymore....? Let's be honest, i now that's not true. But gee whilackers that would make my life easier right now. *sighs*

Also, the first 2 people that Christ appeared to after he was resurrected were women. I did not ever think of those stories in that way. I thought that was interesting considering he could have appeared to his apostles first.

On Sunday, we got a book all about the Relief Society and all the women in the church are supposed to read it. He read a couple paragraphs from it and it sounds pretty cool. I'll add that to my LONG list of "things to do" list. There's a problem though. For every one item i get crossed off, it seems 3 items are added. It'll work out, it always does.

side note/question- i wish there was an equivalent for the word "guys" in feminine form. Because girl sounds really little, but women sounds like an old lady and young women sounds like high school/puberty age . Boy sounds little, man sounds really old, young man sounds high school... but the male also has the word "guy" to use. Which sounds perfect in a lot of contexts. And granted, the word guy sometimes is a unisex word, there still is not a word equivalent to "guy" for the female personage. plus, sometimes i feel like a male when people refer to me as a "guy". just kidding, i don't. haha Maybe i'll start using the word "gal". My grandma calls me and my girl-friends that all the time. hmm....

Well, my film is done bathing. Now i get to go add "bubble bath" {photo flo}

until next time-- think of me becoming even paler in the darkroom while you all get to go out and have romantic picnics because the weather is near perfect {slightly chilly but who cares if you have someone to keep warm with}. One day I'm going to buy a cute checkered blanket and a wooden picnic basket and am going to sit under a big maple tree and have a picnic with a really attractive guy/man while the leaves fall down on us. Then maybe we'll kiss. And i am soo adding this to my kissing list now. I'm such a hopeless one. haha. :D

xoXOxoXO
Bri

Sometimes....

I really need to blog about something funny sometime. But nothing funny has happened. It's kinda the opposite of funny sometimes.

Sometimes I miss my daddy a lot. like tonight. I was so lucky to have a priesthood holder in my home and that could give me a father's blessing when I needed them. I just grew so accustomed to having him so near that it makes it hard now when i really need one from him.  I know that others can give me a blessing, but i feel embarrassed that i'm too weak in life sometimes that i don't ever ask for one. I miss his "secret drawer" of chocolate that i'm pretty sure was just as much for me and my 2 sisters when we needed it as it was for him.  He is my favorite person to talk to about certain things and is the best at keeping my perspective in the right place. He's always so positive in everything and right now, i needed some positiveness from him. He told me that a good place to start is to make a chocolate milk shake with M&M's. {does he know me or what? :)} He always makes me feel important and that my problems are not insignificant to him. He cares about me and is always so even tempered and calm. It makes me calm and helps me think clearly. He helps me become a better person. The most amazing part about my dad is that he didn't have to be a dad to me. Since he's not my biological dad, he never had any legal duty to be a father. Instead of taking on the responsibility of dad like a job, he acted like it was a blessing and privilege. I am always amazed by this and i do not think that anyone has done this as well as he is still doing! I miss him a lot and wish i was going home this weekend especially so i could get that fathers blessing. I'm grateful for how close I am to him. if you haven't heard the song by brad Paisley called "he didn't have to be" you should go listen to it here. It makes me cry every time. But don't worry, you probably won't cry... i'm just a cryer over things like this. And it has a little more meaning to me than it would to most of you. Here's my favorite part-

"When a single mom goes out on a date with somebody new
It always winds up feeling more like a job interview
My momma used to wonder if she'd ever meet someone
Who wouldn't find out about me and then turn around and run 

I met the man I call my dad when I was five years old {i was 9}
He took my mom out to a movie and for once I got to go {how true this is}
A few months later I remember lying there in bed
I overheard him pop the question and prayed that she'd say yes {he asked mine and Ash's permission before he asked my mom}

And then all of a sudden
Oh, it seemed so strange to me
How we went from something's missing
To a family
Lookin' back all I can say
About all the things he did for me
Is I hope I'm at least half the dad 
That he didn't have to be {i hope a marry a man who'll be half the dad mine didn't have to be}"

Sometimes I just need to read my favorite book and live in a world I know isn't real. Because it's a romance and i am a hopeless romantic. Because i'm pretty sure Rider is the most perfect character there ever was and a large reason why i'm so smitten by the thought of a cowboy {and why it's on my baby names list}

Sometimes i burn my pizza cooking in the oven because i forgot to set the timer.

Sometimes I wish i could change my major. Okay, not. but sometimes it's too overwhelming to think about. Sometimes i dislike smelling like rotten eggs from the chemicals and sometimes i dislike being blinded by the strobe lights for 6 hours on a saturday morning. And sometimes i dislike the chemical "Fixer" burns i get from the wet lab that hurt and make my hands feel like a man's hand. But sometimes {most of the time} i'm pretty passionate about this major and what i do. I dislike it when i have conversations like this-
person- "so, what's your major?"
me- "photography"
person "Oh fun! i wish i could have an easy major like that!" {in preppy voice}
me- "i kinda want to stamp on your toes! :D " {in mocking preppy voice and fake smile}

okay so i never say that last line. sometimes i feel like it though. My major might not be something people consider to be a "real major" because we don't do loads of math problems or write 500 page essays on existentialims , but this in no way means i don't have to work my hind-end off or spend as much time on my projects and homework as you do. Did you know that for each 3 credit class i take, i spend at least 6 hours of scheduled in class time a week? so if you have a 3 credit class you go 3 times a week for 50 minutes. Well i go 3 times a week for 2-3 hours each.
I just had this type of conversation happen to me again today so i decided to rant a little. Next week, before my mid term portfolios are due, i'll put a list of requirements i have to have and it might make you want to rip the paper to shred like it does me. All i'll say now-Photography is not what meets the eye. And no, the only thing i do is NOT say "cheese" and press a button. At least the few of us photographers that do it as a major don't do that.

Sometimes I am really smitten. And sometimes {aka always} it is not good for anything but heartache.

Sometimes i really wish that pizza hadn't burnt so my tummy wouldn't be growling at me.

p.s. i don't think that recipe wednesday is going to happen tomorrow.... because there's this evil thing called the dark room that i will be semi-living in....

xoxoxo
Bri

A Happy Post

Today was a much better day. why? because- {maybe one day i'll not use so many bullet points.... maybe one day}

• Cause I got this text from my brother that said "mi amigo, he's a hero, HERO of the day!" {have you seen that youtube video? if not, you're missing out} and a phone call from him too. I don't know why, but there's something about this 15 year old kid that i miss. :P He always can make me laugh and is really amusing to listen to. For instance, he said, "ya know Brianna, I am done with girls!" this is what i said, "yay!! i don't want you to like girls till your home from your mission!" {because i'm fairly certain that half the girls at his school have a crush on him and it drives me nuts!} he said "wait, when you were in high school you would always be bugged 'cause guys never asked girls out..." i thought, "shoot you're right!" but instead said "but that's until i grew older and wiser. you should definitely stay away from them till you're an RM." I'm pretty sure i've confused the kid. But, i must say, Quinton will be one of the most educated guys when it comes to how girls work. I'm pretty sure that he's already a pro at it. 
• i got a package in the mail from my grandpa Cobb with 3 rolls of film from his freezer that expired in 1994. So i'm waay excited to go develop it now and see if it'll turn out. 
• I FINALLY got to talk to ash on the phone. I think she's been avoiding me but she called me today. haha. 
•  The addition from my siblings to a wall post on facebook about me being "engaged". It really made me laugh. Except i think Emilie took the whole thing seriously because she texted me and asked when i'm bringing him home to meet the family {with 15 exclamation marks... just because that's how emilie is-excited about life. it's entertaining.}. When i told her it was a joke she asked if it had to be. haha. love that girl.
• i got to carve a pumpkin! he's a handsome lil' thing. I love LoVe LOVE carving pumpkins. It marks the beginning of fall, i love the smell, and the process from start to finish. I named him billy. But Betsy is insisting on calling him huxley. Because that's her favorite name in the whole world. I still don't understand why....  but i get to carve another pumpkin on Halloween in my 3D design class. you kind of wish you were an art major now, right? Anyways, if you want to see him, he's on the steps of my apartment. 
• i got to laugh a lot. Whoever said that laughter is the best medicine would be correct. 
• I got to help write Allison's lover a message back on Facebook because she was too nervous to type it. And I'm pretty sure he'll now propose and they'll live happily ever after.
• Someone wrote me a Haiku. haha. that's only happened one other time in my life- it was from papa anne in high school. 
• my shoe in 3D design is apx 1/4 of the way done. i added close to 2000 jewels to it today and have about another 10000 to go. it's starting to look pretty neat-o. 
• I just got done writing my English paper. It was a rough paper to write. But, i have some advice- if you are struggling with coming up with what to write, change the station in Pandora to Mormon Tabernacle Choir and say a quick prayer. Things will go more smoothly and you'll be happier.

Never a more true statement

and because i'm in a good mood. here's some things that make me laugh-

Allison and i were talking to eachother on chat. i was at the
kitchen table and she was upstairs in her room. my fishy,
Tablespoon Died a few days ago. :'( and she said this. it was
pretty grand.
i love this girl.